Word

I finally found out why I felt so restless and anxious.
Went swimming but all I could do was agonize over the fact that something was severely wrong with my life.
Got up and sat on one of the lounge chairs and finally it came.
All my prayers weren't working cause prayer wasn't the issue.
The issue was that I had not been reading my bible properly.
Like, sit-down-and-read-and-meditate-and-journalling-reflections kind of a read, not the read-it-while-I'm-having-breakfast-and-highlighting-verses-that-stand-out-to-me kind of a read.

I thought I had a devotional life.
I was kidding me.
The red warning light had been going on for awhile.
I just hadn't noticed, or tried not to notice.

So now I'm starting all over, all the way from Genesis, unlearning and relearning things as I go along. Thanks to my beloved CG that bought me a Quest bible for my birthday, I have something to guide me with. It's really cool, you know, the Quest bible! It comes with maps and a timeline and reading plans and footnotes of questions and answers and many many other things I haven't explored yet.
So cool :)

A very humbling experience.
We can be leading and ministering all out of our own capacities and not even realise it.
Owch.

Here's a toast to putting my life back into semblance of what it should be :)

"You Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
Psalm 119:105