I told Thea
"plus, all I want in return is a smile on your face"
She said it sounded scary.
I didn't think it was until I remembered The Dark Knight.
Ok maybe I should've said
"plus, all I want in return is to see you smile"
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
snippets
You silly girl why did you say it sounded gay when you actually really like the song and you actually think it's a brave thing to do?!
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K-box is fun :) though I've only been, what - 5 times in my entire life?
Mah-jong is fun, only it isn;t fun cause I've played 3 sessions and so far I;ve done nothing but lose money.
And my shi san yao always gets hijacked!!!
Aaaarugh~
I can't believe it.
I actually have the luck (or lack thereof) to get shi san yao two times when I've only played 3 sessions!
Haato ice cream is the best!!!
I can totally see why chocolate banana is Olie's all time favourite
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CS is ok fun, though the violence takes a bit of getting used to.
Then again, I'm not so sure it's a good thign to get used to it.
Dota again!
I'm getting the hang of the Dwarven Sniper, which is alot easier than Lina Inverse, though she's still prettier :P
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K-box is fun :) though I've only been, what - 5 times in my entire life?
Mah-jong is fun, only it isn;t fun cause I've played 3 sessions and so far I;ve done nothing but lose money.
And my shi san yao always gets hijacked!!!
Aaaarugh~
I can't believe it.
I actually have the luck (or lack thereof) to get shi san yao two times when I've only played 3 sessions!
Haato ice cream is the best!!!
I can totally see why chocolate banana is Olie's all time favourite
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CS is ok fun, though the violence takes a bit of getting used to.
Then again, I'm not so sure it's a good thign to get used to it.
Dota again!
I'm getting the hang of the Dwarven Sniper, which is alot easier than Lina Inverse, though she's still prettier :P
Monday, December 29, 2008
Dark Knight Returns
It's nice not having the comp in the living room.
Feels peaceful when I get home without the visible humming of the machine :)
But it also means I don't get to use the comp until daddy buys a laptop.
Or when this room's unoccupied.
Like now.
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Watched The Dark Knight for the second time at Olie's house (played guitar hero too, but that's besdie the point).
Loved it loved it loved it.
Ok I don't love it for superhero's sake, but I love it for all the uber cool parallels we can draw between the movie and our world from the Christian point of view.
"Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn."
Alfred was describing the Joker.
Sounded alot like Satan to me.
"Why's he running, Dad?"
"Because we have to chase him."
"He didn't do anything wrong."
"Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark knight."
Sounds alot like Jesus.
[the Joker has rigged two ferries to explode, one filled with prison inmates, one with ordinary people, giving each ferry a detonator and telling them that one has to blow up the other, or he'll blow up both of them. One of the prisoners approaches the Warden, who is holding the detonator]
"You don't want to die, but you don't know how to take a life. Give it to me; these men would kill you, and take it anyway. Give it to me. You can tell 'em I took it by force. Give it to me, and I'll do what you shoulda did ten minutes ago."
[Scared, the Warden hands over the detonator. The Tattooed Prisoner looks at it, then throws it out the window]
"We really should stop fighting, we'll miss the fireworks!"
"There aren't going to be any fireworks!"
"And here... we... go!"
[Silence. Nothing happens. Confused, Joker turns to look at the clock, which shows that it's past midnight and neither of the ferries have blown the other up]
"What were you hoping to prove? That, deep down, everyone's as ugly as you? You're *alone*! "
Batman stopped Joker from blowing up the ferries, but he couldn't stop the people on the ferries from blowing one another up.
"Sometimes, the truth isn't enough. People need to have their faith rewarded."
"The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming."
Feels peaceful when I get home without the visible humming of the machine :)
But it also means I don't get to use the comp until daddy buys a laptop.
Or when this room's unoccupied.
Like now.
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Watched The Dark Knight for the second time at Olie's house (played guitar hero too, but that's besdie the point).
Loved it loved it loved it.
Ok I don't love it for superhero's sake, but I love it for all the uber cool parallels we can draw between the movie and our world from the Christian point of view.
"Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn."
Alfred was describing the Joker.
Sounded alot like Satan to me.
"Why's he running, Dad?"
"Because we have to chase him."
"He didn't do anything wrong."
"Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now. So we'll hunt him because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A dark knight."
Sounds alot like Jesus.
[the Joker has rigged two ferries to explode, one filled with prison inmates, one with ordinary people, giving each ferry a detonator and telling them that one has to blow up the other, or he'll blow up both of them. One of the prisoners approaches the Warden, who is holding the detonator]
"You don't want to die, but you don't know how to take a life. Give it to me; these men would kill you, and take it anyway. Give it to me. You can tell 'em I took it by force. Give it to me, and I'll do what you shoulda did ten minutes ago."
[Scared, the Warden hands over the detonator. The Tattooed Prisoner looks at it, then throws it out the window]
"We really should stop fighting, we'll miss the fireworks!"
"There aren't going to be any fireworks!"
"And here... we... go!"
[Silence. Nothing happens. Confused, Joker turns to look at the clock, which shows that it's past midnight and neither of the ferries have blown the other up]
"What were you hoping to prove? That, deep down, everyone's as ugly as you? You're *alone*! "
Batman stopped Joker from blowing up the ferries, but he couldn't stop the people on the ferries from blowing one another up.
"Sometimes, the truth isn't enough. People need to have their faith rewarded."
"The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming."
lost and found
Ok this is random but...
I was running an errand at Far East Plaza and was planning to drop by Livia cause I couldn't find my brown and white hair-tie anywhere (school is starting soon and it's the only one that's tight enough to hold my hair in place when I dance).
But.
The shop had closed down.
And since I was pressed for time, I decided to leave it for another time.
(here's the second but) But.
I just had this feeling that it'll work out alright.
And it wasn't any old feeling.
It's that feeling of divine-ness.
A few days later, I find it in my pocket.
My brown and white hair-tie.
God's not only in the big things.
He's in the small things too!
I was running an errand at Far East Plaza and was planning to drop by Livia cause I couldn't find my brown and white hair-tie anywhere (school is starting soon and it's the only one that's tight enough to hold my hair in place when I dance).
But.
The shop had closed down.
And since I was pressed for time, I decided to leave it for another time.
(here's the second but) But.
I just had this feeling that it'll work out alright.
And it wasn't any old feeling.
It's that feeling of divine-ness.
A few days later, I find it in my pocket.
My brown and white hair-tie.
God's not only in the big things.
He's in the small things too!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
CHRISTmas
These few days have been a crazy mass of events, one after another.
Venue hopped from Mu Gen's house to Mas Kuning (which I've not visited in aeons) then home then out again to church (KCPSS) and PS followed by CCIS in the dhoby area; home again, out for an appointment at AH (I gotta be more diligent about my exercises) and home to decor the living room (climbing up and down to get the lights up - they look quite nice, I must say). Yesterday I had my first Christmas party at home (I say first cause I don't think I've ever organized one on my own) and today I'm back at Jens' for the yearly tradition.
This year, I'm determined to make Christmas mean more than parties and shopping and presents. Defnitely NOT about Santa.
Brought my book (Finding God in Unexpected places by my fave author, Philip Yancey); am hoping to steal away for a bit of time on my own (as do always).
I never knew this (or maybe I did), but I'm a loner at heart.
It's not the same being alone and lonely though.
Before Jesus, it was mostly lonely.
Nowadays, it's lovely aloneness called solitude.
Merry CHRISTmas :)
Friday, December 19, 2008
Avey loves...
Do you know what it's like to think and move like a 4 year old?
It's strange, but I was like trapped in a 4 year old state of mind.
I couldn't talk 'adult', and I couldn't quite control my movements either.
But perhaps 'trapped' is the wrong word.
It was quite enjoyable, frankly.
When you're 4 years old, the answers are alot simpler.
But simple in a good way.
I think as we grow older, we complicate things that are actually really very simple.
It's strange, but I was like trapped in a 4 year old state of mind.
I couldn't talk 'adult', and I couldn't quite control my movements either.
But perhaps 'trapped' is the wrong word.
It was quite enjoyable, frankly.
When you're 4 years old, the answers are alot simpler.
But simple in a good way.
I think as we grow older, we complicate things that are actually really very simple.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
007
I like the new seriesd of 007 movies!
Daniel Craig makes a better James Bond, in my opinion.
No doubt Pierce Brosnan is more refined and chaarming, but Craig's appeal comes in his ruggedness. And I like that the directors keep him real in Casiona Royale and Quantum of Solace. He's actually a vulnerable human, not some scratch free superspy actor on film.
Not to mention the moves are alot more kick ass in the new movies.
Daniel Craig makes a better James Bond, in my opinion.
No doubt Pierce Brosnan is more refined and chaarming, but Craig's appeal comes in his ruggedness. And I like that the directors keep him real in Casiona Royale and Quantum of Solace. He's actually a vulnerable human, not some scratch free superspy actor on film.
Not to mention the moves are alot more kick ass in the new movies.
17 Dec 2008
...was a very nice day.
Went to watch Wild Child with James, but the timing had changed, so we ended up watching Twilight instead (causing me to bust my movie budget cause it's not off the no free list yet). It wasn't that great, but oh well, it was enjoyable enough.
Subway lunch! I've not eaten the tuna sub in aeons!
Had loads of time so we walked around for a bit.
Bumped into my brother.
*sigh*
When will the walls come down?
I'm living with a stranger in the house.
And every day, the layers thicken and the distance widens.
Some day, we're gonna wake up and not be able to recognise one another at all.
Oh yar, ran into Hui Ru too :)
Turns out she works nearby! Talk about coincidence.
Took bus 14 home.
Headed to Ikea for tea (but ended up with coffee instead) and an extremely satisfying read of What's So Amazing About Grace by Philip Yancey.
This is my third time reading, but God continues to make His presence felt through the pages.
Had meatballs for dinner.
Wandered around Ikea on a mini-date with my Savior King.
Went over to anchorpoint and did a bit of shopping for the Christmas party next tuesday.
Or more like snooping around, cause all I did was checked prices.
Checked my emails, downloaded some songs, now The Little Nyonya is on, so I'm off.
Just an average day :)
Or not.
At least I felt gorgeous and comfortable at the same time in my outfit.
Plus I really enjoyed my time with God.
:)
I didn't get a single thing.
Went to watch Wild Child with James, but the timing had changed, so we ended up watching Twilight instead (causing me to bust my movie budget cause it's not off the no free list yet). It wasn't that great, but oh well, it was enjoyable enough.
Subway lunch! I've not eaten the tuna sub in aeons!
Had loads of time so we walked around for a bit.
Bumped into my brother.
*sigh*
When will the walls come down?
I'm living with a stranger in the house.
And every day, the layers thicken and the distance widens.
Some day, we're gonna wake up and not be able to recognise one another at all.
Oh yar, ran into Hui Ru too :)
Turns out she works nearby! Talk about coincidence.
Took bus 14 home.
Headed to Ikea for tea (but ended up with coffee instead) and an extremely satisfying read of What's So Amazing About Grace by Philip Yancey.
This is my third time reading, but God continues to make His presence felt through the pages.
Had meatballs for dinner.
Wandered around Ikea on a mini-date with my Savior King.
Went over to anchorpoint and did a bit of shopping for the Christmas party next tuesday.
Or more like snooping around, cause all I did was checked prices.
Checked my emails, downloaded some songs, now The Little Nyonya is on, so I'm off.
Just an average day :)
Or not.
At least I felt gorgeous and comfortable at the same time in my outfit.
Plus I really enjoyed my time with God.
:)
I didn't get a single thing.
slaps myself on the cheek
For Christ's sake (and quite literally speaking) I gotta get out of emo-ville!
What's wrong with me why do I always blog when I'm feeling emo!
Ok from this day onwards, I shall stop blogging only when I'm feeling emo!
I wanna blog about the happy stuff too!
What's wrong with me why do I always blog when I'm feeling emo!
Ok from this day onwards, I shall stop blogging only when I'm feeling emo!
I wanna blog about the happy stuff too!
snippets
Listening to emo songs and feeling very emo indeed.
"Yet everyone around me thinks I'm going crazy.
Maybe, maybe."
"When you're gone,
pieces of my heart keep missing you."
Reading stuff that makes me even more emo.
What can I do to make you believe me?
I've done everything I can, should, must, shouldn't and mustn't.
This acorn is finding it very hard to see the full glory of the oak tree.
"Yet everyone around me thinks I'm going crazy.
Maybe, maybe."
"When you're gone,
pieces of my heart keep missing you."
Reading stuff that makes me even more emo.
What can I do to make you believe me?
I've done everything I can, should, must, shouldn't and mustn't.
This acorn is finding it very hard to see the full glory of the oak tree.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Pleasure and Pain
Pleasure and pain are the two things in life that give you that sense of alive-ness.
So the devil, being the sneaky, crafty old liar that he is, will attempt to either take away your pleasure by introducing all kinds of sell-imposed restrictions and convince you that the way to paradise is to suffer now (think earning your way into heaven)...
OR
he will numb you to pain by lying that no one cares and that you're incapable of getting rid of the pain, so give in to things like alcohol, drugs, sex - anything that will provide instantaneous escapes. That's where addictions come in.
Jesus came that we may have life.
Life to the fullest.
Don't let the devil cheat you of the life that you have with Jesus.
So the devil, being the sneaky, crafty old liar that he is, will attempt to either take away your pleasure by introducing all kinds of sell-imposed restrictions and convince you that the way to paradise is to suffer now (think earning your way into heaven)...
OR
he will numb you to pain by lying that no one cares and that you're incapable of getting rid of the pain, so give in to things like alcohol, drugs, sex - anything that will provide instantaneous escapes. That's where addictions come in.
Jesus came that we may have life.
Life to the fullest.
Don't let the devil cheat you of the life that you have with Jesus.
PS. I Love You
Is not a chick flick, much as many would like to think.
It's about moving on when a part of you has died.
Good for any soul who is in need of strength.
Your life is a happy little thing; not perfect, but pleasant enough.
One day, something happens and you lose everything that ever meant anything to you.
Suddenly, you realise your life is hinged upon lots of things.
And none of those things are going to be around forever.
Only Jesus will always be there for you.
It's about moving on when a part of you has died.
Good for any soul who is in need of strength.
Your life is a happy little thing; not perfect, but pleasant enough.
One day, something happens and you lose everything that ever meant anything to you.
Suddenly, you realise your life is hinged upon lots of things.
And none of those things are going to be around forever.
Only Jesus will always be there for you.
An Acorn
"It is easy to make a mistake here. "If God gave it to me," we say, "it's mine. I can do what I want with it." No. The truth is that it is ours to thank Him for and ours to offer back to Him, ours to relinquish, ours to lose, ours to let go off - if we want to find our true selves, if we want real Life, if our hearts are set on glory.
Think of the self that God has given us as an acorn. It is a marvelous little thing, a perfect shape, perfectly designed for its purpose, perfectly functional. Think of the grand glory of an oak tree. God's intention when He made the acorn was the oak tree. His intention for us is "...the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ." Many deaths must go into our reaching that measure, many letting-goes. When you look at the oak tree, you dont feel the "loss" of the acorn is a very great loss. The more you perceive God's purpose in your lifr, the less terrible will the losses seem."
Passion and Purity, Chapter 38 - "God Granted and God Denied"
Think of the self that God has given us as an acorn. It is a marvelous little thing, a perfect shape, perfectly designed for its purpose, perfectly functional. Think of the grand glory of an oak tree. God's intention when He made the acorn was the oak tree. His intention for us is "...the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ." Many deaths must go into our reaching that measure, many letting-goes. When you look at the oak tree, you dont feel the "loss" of the acorn is a very great loss. The more you perceive God's purpose in your lifr, the less terrible will the losses seem."
Passion and Purity, Chapter 38 - "God Granted and God Denied"
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
The King's Love
"Suppose there was a king who loved a humble maiden," begins a story by Kierkegaard.
The king was like no other ing. Every statesman trembled before his power. No one dared breathe a word against him, for he had the strength to crush all opponents. And yet this mighty king was melted love for a humble maiden.
How could he declare his love for her? In an odd sort of way, his very kingliness tied his hands. If he brought her to the palace and crowned her head with jewels and her body in royal robes, she would surely not resist - no one dared resist him. But would she love him?
She would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly? Or would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind. Would she be happy at his side? How could he know?
If he rode to her forest cottage in his royal carriage, with an armed escort waving bright banners, that too would overwhelm her. He did not want a cringing suubject. He wanted a lover, an equal. He wanted her to forget that he was king and she a humble maiden and to let shared love cross over the gulf between them.
"For it is only in love that the unequal can be made equal," concluded Kierkegaard. The king, convinced he could not elevate the maiden without crushing her freedom, resolved to descend. He clothed himself as a beggar and approached her cottage incognito, with a worn cloak fluttering loosely about him. It was no mere disguise, but a new identity he took on. He renou nced the throne to win her hand.
Excerpt from "Disappointment with God" by Philip Yancey.
The king was like no other ing. Every statesman trembled before his power. No one dared breathe a word against him, for he had the strength to crush all opponents. And yet this mighty king was melted love for a humble maiden.
How could he declare his love for her? In an odd sort of way, his very kingliness tied his hands. If he brought her to the palace and crowned her head with jewels and her body in royal robes, she would surely not resist - no one dared resist him. But would she love him?
She would say she loved him, of course, but would she truly? Or would she live with him in fear, nursing a private grief for the life she had left behind. Would she be happy at his side? How could he know?
If he rode to her forest cottage in his royal carriage, with an armed escort waving bright banners, that too would overwhelm her. He did not want a cringing suubject. He wanted a lover, an equal. He wanted her to forget that he was king and she a humble maiden and to let shared love cross over the gulf between them.
"For it is only in love that the unequal can be made equal," concluded Kierkegaard. The king, convinced he could not elevate the maiden without crushing her freedom, resolved to descend. He clothed himself as a beggar and approached her cottage incognito, with a worn cloak fluttering loosely about him. It was no mere disguise, but a new identity he took on. He renou nced the throne to win her hand.
Excerpt from "Disappointment with God" by Philip Yancey.
Bleeding Love
Leona Lewis
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking 'round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
Everything
Everything by Lifehouse.
Check this out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
Mu Gen said he cried all 3 times when he watched it.
I've only watched it once so far, but I cried like a baby anyway.
Check this out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
Mu Gen said he cried all 3 times when he watched it.
I've only watched it once so far, but I cried like a baby anyway.
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