Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Read two things in a row that made me angry, nauseated, upset, sympathetic and indignant all at once.
I think a large part of it was indignance, and the rest of it was probably grief over the blindness of man.

Men who have elevated their own status to god.
Men who have chosen lies for truth.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Baby-phobic

Just being random.
Some people (like me) put the '(' before the ':' for their smileys so that it won't become a face.
Sometimes, we do it the usual ':)' way when it doesn't become a face.
Either that, or we forget.
Oh well.
Enough about smileys.

Went to watch Ice Age 3 today.
It was completely unplanned.
I got so fed up at the PLAY kiosk for not being able to read my thumbprint for a good whole 5 minutes that I had to restrain myself from using swear words.
Then I got so frustrated I almost cried (my arm was really, really hurting from holding my thumb up in that awkward position for so long).
When it still didn't work after I logged out and logged in again for like, 3 times or more, I finally lost my self-control.
So I kicked the machine.

Anyway, that very long narrative explains why I went to buy myself a movie ticket to Ice Age 3. Needed to make myself feel better, and didn't want to waste my trip to Tiong Bahru Plaza, plus I did want to see the movie in the first place.
It's one of those unplanned-planned things.

Right.
Back to the point (why do I keep digressing?)
Manny and Ellie the mammoths finally had their baby!
They called her Peaches.
Peaches is SO. DARN. CUTE!
I was sitting there (alone, having the whole row to myself) and completely losing myself going ga-ga over how cute the baby mammoth is and realised I don't mind having a baby after all.

That was monumental.

I've always had a phobia of having children.
Unlike my girlfriends, I am so unmoved when I see babies (even Jonathan Mann, no offense to Dave or Heather, Jonathan and Ethan are absolutely adorable, but it's all up here in my head; it never did get down to my heart).
So I've always thought I'll make a terrible mum cause I won't be doing the whole very-taken-in-by-baby thing that we girls are supposed to do when we see babies.
See like my girlfriend Cas, she might be a Tim Burton fanatic, but she has a soft spot for babies.
Me? I'm supposed to be a big softie for things like that, but I don't (have a soft spot for babies, I mean).

So I was watching this baby mammoth frolicking around in the snow.
She like, sucked in a snowflake and started sneezing.
And they called her Peaches cause she's soft, sweet and fuzzy, and I'm like - awwwwww, isn't she adorable? (ok to be more accurate, it went more like, awwwww, isn't she the dang cutest thing?)
The it hit me that maybe I'll be able to do this thing called motherhood after all.

Eileen jie says no woman is really ever ready for motherhood.
It just hits them, and they pick things up along the way, which is really comforting to know.
So I'm not the only lost one out here.
Will be relying ALOT on the wisdom of 'those who have gone before'.

My phobia of having children - conquered.
If you experience similar troubles in taking a fancy to babies, you know what to do.
Go watch Ice Age 3 :)