Nothing and Everything

You know those days when you wake up and just know you're off to a horribly, horribly wrong day? Makes your insides all shrivelled and your soul kinda start withering up.

Was by the swings, trying to catch a glimpse of the Glory that I had somehow lost. He passed by, and like Moses hiding in the rock, I only caught the tailend.

This is rubbish.
My insides were screaming.
I felt hollow, empty, void, worthless.
As though I am nothing.

I am nothing.
The sound of it echoed throughout my plains of my inner world and for a moment, I though I'd lost it.

That's when He spoke.
"When you become nothing, that's when I become everything."

Simple, but the truth of it fell like heavyweight from the sky.
Let the glory of His presence fall.

Yes Jesus, when I become nothing, You become everything, my everything.

Remember My Love

If you're feeling lost, come back to Me.
I know you are mere mortal.

How can my finiteness ever comprehend Your infiniteness?

I know you.
That's the beauty of it.
You can rest knowing that I see you.

"My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Psalm 139: 15-16

Remember My Love.

Yes, I remember now.
Remember...

"You have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me. Look inside yourself, Simba. You are more than what you have become. You must take your place in the Circle of Life."
"How can I go back? I'm not who I used to be."
"Remember who you are. You are my son, and the one true king. Remember..."

Here's how: we do it by remembering.

Mere Mortal

The days are passing despite all attempts to restrain the hols; they just can't seem to help but speed by.
You know what makes a difference?
It's in knowing the day was well spent.
Whatever it is you do, make it worthwhile.
Easier said than done, I know.

But I hate sluggishness.
The sense of mundanity, in-betweeness that has "meaningless" scrawled all over it.

You know what makes a difference?
God.
Either He's at your center or He's not.
I've kinda lost Him at my center.

Sorry Jesus.
Please come back onto the throne.
It's Yours, I swear.
I just have problems keeping my eyes on You all the time.
Distractions keep coming, and I'm only human, You know.
I mean, of course You know.

I'm a mere mortal.

Bye Bye Lina

Ok right.
So I'm kinda into dota at the moment.

The enemy was using Lina! Aargh!
And I checked her items. Like whoa.
Ok, so I learn something.

I like the Dwarven Sniper.
Reminds me of the dwarfs from Narnia.
Haha guess all dwarfs have something in common - they're aim is deadly!

Let me try Lina again and see if I can power her up!

I know, I know.
Someone's whispering something about addiction.
I think it's time to straighten some stuff out in my life.

Miracle or Magic?

I love this quote from Bruce Almighty.

God: Parting a soup is not a miracle, Bruce. It's a magic trick. A single mom who's working two jobs, and still finds time to take her son to soccer practice, that's a miracle. A teenager who says "no" to drugs and "yes" to an education, that's a miracle. People want me to do everything for them. What they don't realize is *they* have the power. You want to see a miracle, son? Be the miracle.

Sometimes we pray and ask for miracles.
What we don't realise is that we ask for magic.
God ain't no magician, and He definitely ain't no wishing well.
And forget any thoughts you ever had about striking jackpot when you've prayed enough times.
God specialises in miracles.
He may choose to work a bit of magic here and there from time to time, but that's His choice, dudes!

When our eyes are opened to see the difference between a miracle and a magic trick, we will see so much, so much more.

Subang Villa, KL

My God is not a God limited by geographical locations.
And He doesn't require a conference hall, throngs of people and a worship team for His glorious presence to fall either.
Sometimes, even in the quietest, smallest room that you're oh-so-familiar with, He can meet you, touch you, transform you.

Those who have been touched by God are never the same again.

Let His presence fall.
If you're in need of a breakthrough in life or for anything at all, let Him come through for you.
He will. He never fails.
You may need to be patient for awhile, but He ALWAYS comes through.

Struggling with addictions?
Wait for Him.
Hurting and in need of healing?
Wait for Him.
Drowning in problems?
Wait for Him.
Blinded by darkness?
Wait for Him.
Overwhelmed by sorrow?
Wait for Him.

For every heart that's been broken, God is ready to work a miracle.
If anyone can turn it around, God can.

In fact, you will soon find that everything else you try to use to stop the pain will refuse to work at some point.
That's God's way of saying, "I've been waiting for you to come to Me."

We will not find life apart from Him.

Waffles and Spaghetti

Men are like Waffles, Women are like Spaghetti.

The book immediately caught my attention, but I didn't do more than picking it up and reading the back cover.
It wasn't until a month or so later that I finally GOT IT!

But of course!
Men ARE like waffles.
They process things from square to square, each square is isolated and unrelated to the rest.
Everything's so neatly compartmentalised.
No wonder they can move from one thing to another at the speed of light.

Women are like spaghetti.
Every strand inevitably touches every other strand on the plate.
In other words, it's ALL CONNECTED.
No wonder almost everything's a jumbled mess of collected memories and emotions, none of which can be separated from the other.

That makes sense.
No wonder men move on so quickly.

Lina Inverse Onboard

I thought lanning was going to be a total waste of time.
Don't even ask how I ended up there, but I did.
Trying to recap all the tips that Moe has taught me and the various odds and ends I'd picked up watching my brother play.
2 hours went by just like that.
I rejoiced that it cost me less than what a movie would have.

BUT!
And there's always a but.
God reminds me that He has a purpose for every bit of my life.
Even for something as ridiculously pointless as dota.

I'm not saying what it is.
It's too precious to spoil.
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Oh.
My.
Goodness.

I wish I'd never, never NEVER signed up for a Facebook account.